I feel really sad. </3

Yesterday was such a roller-coaster of emotions but a night to remember (everything before 1am; LOL). It was accomplished that I cried. Boo … I’m such a simp. -.- Haha but it shows how much this year and everyone means to me. <3

Here’s my favorite picture of the night. Look how happy everyone looks. :)

“If you live to be a hundred, I want to live to be a hundred minus one day so I never have to live without you.” Winnie The Pooh

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I’m really excited about tomorrow’s Eboard breakfast, transitions and banquet but yet, I’m a bit sad.

I had a talk with Thi Minh and Vince yesterday and we just recapped on the year.  We know for a fact that things will change and it’s sad that as much as we want to control the change, we can’t.

This year has been incredible! And honestly, I think being on Eboard definitely helped and made it much better. I’m glad I took advantage of the opportunity. :) I was able to grow out of my comfort zone and meet some amazing people, developing some unforgettable memories and friendships. I also grew as a person. There were so many laughs shared this year, I can’t even begin! I loved it. Although, I had personal struggles within myself about school and life … APSA always gave me something to look forward to. It was hard juggling work, school, family, friends and being on board but I wouldn’t have changed a thing. As the year is ending, I feel like everyone haven’t spent as much time together and we’re just getting to know each other! But I hope we’ll all create more memories in the future. :)

I know the day will fly by fast, but ALL SMILES TOMORROW! :)
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Tonight I’ve learned:

• Instead of running away, smile at your fears. They have more to teach you than you may know.
• Don’t worry about being cool - it’s overrated. You won’t have any fun.
• Always realize the value of kindness.
• Don’t wait for miracles and spontaneous days. You make your own luck.
• Enjoy this trip that you’ve been given and is still walking through.

I don’t know why I have the nerve to walk around downtown by myself. My family and friends always warn me about it. There’s randoms everywhere and many homeless people carelessly wandering the streets. Today, this man came up to me and said, “Do you have 2 quarters I can borrow? Ohh, you look good.” I walked away like what the f#$%?! lol. Extremely creepy and awkward. But despite the creepiness I encounter sometimes, I’m doing a video of my top favorite places in San Diego and Downtown happens to be on the list. :)

19 years is a lot to catch up on, you know? Many things occur within years that changes a person. If I have recently met you, you probably only know me from that moment on and I doubt that you bothered to ask about me or my life. So don’t judge, don’t assume because compared to others, you have no idea who I am.

I miss the days when I didn’t have to rely on daydreams to get me through the day.

Bored and lonely.

Lalalalala

I’m still trying to find a place where I fit in. I don’t feel that I have accomplished that, yet …